DEMENTIA

DEMENTIA DEMENTIA HOW COULD YOU BE SO CRUEL

THE MIND THAT YOU HAVE TAKEN, DOES NOT BELONG TO YOU

TAKE A LEG, TAKE AN ARM WHATEVER ELSE YOU CAN FIND

BUT ALL IS LOST, WHEN YOU TOOK HER MIND

MY JOURNEY WITH MOM IS NOT AS HARD FOR ME AS MY FRIENDS MIGHT THINK

HARD MEANING PHYSICALLY.

BUT THE MENTAL ASPECT OF WATCHING HER LEAVE YOU BEFORE YOUR EYES

IS THE HARDEST.

I AM ' MISS'...SHIRLEY...SWEET PERSON...' BUT I AM REALLY ' JUDY MY DAUGHTER'.

AND THAT SHE CANNOT FIND.

ITS AMAZING. AT BEDTIME..ITS LIKE GOD OPENS THE DOOR AND SHE IS SO ALIVE, AWARE, ALL KNOWING. SHE THANKS YOU FOR THE NICE ROOM...SHE FEELS COZY SHE SAYS. WOULD LIKE A CIGARETTE ( SHE HAS NOT SMOKED SINCE SHE WAS ABOUT 30 AND SHE IS 95)!!! AND EVEN THEN..IT WAS ABOUT 2 A MONTH! NOT SURE WHAT WOULD POSSESS HER TO PICK UP A CIGARETTE. HEAVEN KNOWS SHE HID IT FROM MY DAD AND US CHILDREN. IT WAS A NEIGHBOR WHO TOLD ME ONCE ' YOUR MOM COMES HERE ABOUT ONCE A MONTH...AND SITS AND HAS A CIGARETTE'. YIKES

BUT I AM SOMEWHAT TAXED AT TIMES..BUT YET I MISS HER WHEN I GO FOR JUST A DAY OR A FEW HOURS. THIS WEEK END WE WENT TO SANTE FE FOR 2 DAYS. WHEN I ARRIVED AT HER BEDSIDE AROUND 10.PM..SHE KNEW ME...SAID IT WAS SO NICE FOR ME TO STOP BY. IMAGINE ' STOP BY'.

THIS MORNING. I FOUND HER AT 7..TRYING TO GET OUT OF BED ..SAYING THESE COVERS WERE NOT HERS... I EXPLAINED THIS WAS HER ROOM..AND SHE LIVES WITH ME...HER RESPONSE WAS ' OH HOW WONDERFUL NOW I CAN REALLY SLEEP AND RELAX'.

THIS WAS UNUSUAL. SHE USUALLY AWAKES FEELING GOOD..KNOWING ME..AND READY FOR CEREAL AND STRAWBERRIES. BUT EVERY DAY IS DIFFERENT.

SOME DAYS ARE DIAMONDS..SOME DAYS ARE STONES!

HERE ARE SOME 'BEFORE PICTURES"..TAKEN AROUND 2007..HER DEMENTIA REALLY SHOWED ITS UGLY HEAD SOON AFTER...

LIVE IN THE NOW!

CREATE YOUR DAY!