DEBBIE TURNS 60...WELL NOT QUITE YET

YES, DEBBIE IS TRYING TO CATCH UP TO ME...SORRY DEB, DOESN'T WORK THAT WAY...BUT WE DID SURPRISE HER WITH AN ' EARLY' PARTY..GUESS WE JUST COULDN'T WAIT TO SEE HER GET OLDER..HAHAHAHA.

 ALONG WITH 14 OF HER FRIENDS...HER 2 SISTERS PARTIED WITH  US!  ELAINE, THE SISTER IN THE MIDDLE..AND SANDY ( NOT SHOWN)..( WILL GET SANDY IN THE PICTURE NEXT TIME)...HOSTED THE PARTY AND IT WAS JUST BEAUTIFUL..AT THE TEA HOUSE IN CARE FREE.  SOMETHING ABOUT A PARTY WITH FRIENDS, YOU JUST GO HOME INSPIRED TO...........NOT GET ANY OLDER IF POSSIBLE.!!!!

 I CREATED A JOURNAL FOR MY 2ND COUSIN NANCY WHO IS TRYING TO CARE FOR HER DAD, MY COUSIN ART..FROM AFAR.  DAD IS IN NORTH CAROLINA..NANCY IS IN DENVER, BUT FLIES OUT EVERY MONTH OR TWO.  THIS IS THE INSIDE COVER. THE PAPER IS HAND MADE...I PAINTED A HEART ON CANVAS A COUPLE YEARS AGO..DIDN'T LIKE IT..BUT SAVED IT. HA.  AND COPIED IT ONTO THE HAND MADE PAPER AND THEN ADDED A TRANSPARENCY OF A POEM I WROTE ABOUT MY JOURNAL WITH MOM AND HER DEMENTIA..WHICH I WILL PUT ON MY DEMENTIA BLOG.

 THIS IS THE COVER OF THE BOOK.  NOT SURE WHO GAVE ME THIS BEAUTIFUL SATIN PURSE WITH THE HAND AND ALL THE EMBELLISHMENTS ON IT.  IN REAL LIFE..ITS BEAUTIFUL.  IT OPENS ON THE SIDE AND I PUT A LITTLE MESSAGE INSIDE..
I AM GUESSING IT WAS WANDA...ONLY BECAUSE WANDA HAS GIVEN ME 80% OF EVERY EMBELLISHMENT I HAVE...AND ITS ALOT. BOXES WOULD SHOW UP ON MY DOOR!!!  THESE EMBELLISHMENTS ARE EACH..SO DELICATE AND BEAUTIFUL I JUST FELT I NEEDED TO USE THEM AND SHOW THEM OFF...PEOPLE WHO ARE JOURNALING WHETHER ITS DUE TO A FAMILY ILLNESS...LOSS OF A CHILD OR IN THE HOSPITAL ( I SAY THIS ONLY BECAUSE THOSE ARE THE CHARITIES I DONATE THE JOURNALS FOR)...THEY DESERVE THE BEST..THE PRETTIEST....SO I USE  THE GENEROUS GIFTS WANDA GIVES FOR THESE JOURNALS.

 AND HERE IS WANDA!   SHOCKED YOU DIDN'T I!!!    WELL I TALK ABOUT YOU..PART OF OUR CIRCLE OF FRIENDS..A NAME THAT COMES UP...NOW AND THEN..SO JUST THOUGHT IT ABOUT TIME..THEY SAW THE FACE WITH THE NAME.  WANDA IS IN THE RED ( NOT BLACK)..AND THATS CHERYL MY GOURMET COOK FRIEND ON THE LEFT. WE USED TO GO TO THE FLEA MARKET AT MERCHANT SQUARE JUST TO SEE WHAT WANDA WAS SELLING..UNTIL.....WANDA QUIT ON US!!!!  WE MISS THESE EVENTS WANDA!!!

SO GATTA GO...WEDNESDAY IS MOMS BATH DAY!  CHEERS .

mothers day...my day

WELL HAPPY MOTHERS DAY MOM~

TOOK MOM TO THE RESTAURANT..SHE DID EXACTLY WHAT YOUR SUPPOSED TO DO..EAT..AND EAT...AND EAT...YOU WOULD HAVE THOUGHT WE DID NOT FEED HER...RHANDA, MOMS DAY CAREGIVER WAS THERE FOR SUPPORT!

HERE IS JUST ONE OF HER FAVORITE GRANDSONS..JOHNNY...JOHNNY WAS THE FIRST GRANDCHILD..AND BORN IN MOMS 50TH YEAR..THEY HAVE MADE MANY MEMORIES TOGETHER..WATCHING THE KENTUCKY DERBY WHEN JOHNNY WAS  2 YEARS OLD IS STILL ONE OF HER FAVORITE STORIES!  I KNOW DANNY AND TODD

WERE THERE IN SPIRIT...NANA IS LOVED BY ALL.

 MY DAUGHTER IN LAW..GERI, TOLD ME I NEEDED TO TAKE 15 MINUTES IN THE MORNING TO HAVE A CUP OF COFFEE ...SO HERE IS MY TRAY.  MY COFFEE AND MY ARTIST WAY JOURNAL.  SINCE MOM CAME HERE LAST YEAR I HAVE TRIED TO JOURNAL EVERY DAY...BUT THE 15 MINUTES GOES WAY TOO FAST!!!

 THIS IS THE OUTDOOR THEATER...STUDIO...WHATEVER.  USING AIRBRUSH PAINTS REQUIRED A NEW SET UP..OUTDOORS.  I KNOW IT LOOKS MESSY...PAINT EVERYWHERE, BUT ITS PERFECT.

 A VIEW FROM THE OTHER SIDE.  I OPEN THE SINGLE CAR GARAGE DOOR AROUND 6AM..BEAUTIFUL OUTSIDE..LOTS OF LIGHT..AND THATS MY TIME WITH AIRBRUSH CHALLENGES...I HAVE GRADUATED FROM THE CANVAS TO TILES.  DECIDED TO PAINT MY OWN FOR THE BACK WALL RATHER THEN PURCHASE SOMEONE ELSE'S ART...I DONT' USE AN AIRBRUSH GUN..I USE MY HANDS ..A PAPER CUP AND FOR SURE..PLASTIC GLOVES.

LETS SEE ..NOW I HAVE ...1. THE SINGLE CAR GARAGE.  2. THE FRONT BEDROOM STUDIO..3  THE LINEN CLOSET NEXT TO THE FRONT BEDROOM.  4 SOME SPACE IN THE LAUNDRY ROOM SINCE AIRBRUSH PAINTS CAN'T BE KEPT OUTDOORS  5  A CHEST OF DRAWERS IN MOMS ( GUEST ) BEDDROOM CLOSET  6.  UNDER MOMS BED  7. IN 3RD BEDROOM CLOSET ( WHOOPS).  ENOUGH OF THIS!

DEMENTIA

DEMENTIA DEMENTIA HOW COULD YOU BE SO CRUEL

THE MIND THAT YOU HAVE TAKEN, DOES NOT BELONG TO YOU

TAKE A LEG, TAKE AN ARM WHATEVER ELSE YOU CAN FIND

BUT ALL IS LOST, WHEN YOU TOOK HER MIND

MY JOURNEY WITH MOM IS NOT AS HARD FOR ME AS MY FRIENDS MIGHT THINK

HARD MEANING PHYSICALLY.

BUT THE MENTAL ASPECT OF WATCHING HER LEAVE YOU BEFORE YOUR EYES

IS THE HARDEST.

I AM ' MISS'...SHIRLEY...SWEET PERSON...' BUT I AM REALLY ' JUDY MY DAUGHTER'.

AND THAT SHE CANNOT FIND.

ITS AMAZING. AT BEDTIME..ITS LIKE GOD OPENS THE DOOR AND SHE IS SO ALIVE, AWARE, ALL KNOWING. SHE THANKS YOU FOR THE NICE ROOM...SHE FEELS COZY SHE SAYS. WOULD LIKE A CIGARETTE ( SHE HAS NOT SMOKED SINCE SHE WAS ABOUT 30 AND SHE IS 95)!!! AND EVEN THEN..IT WAS ABOUT 2 A MONTH! NOT SURE WHAT WOULD POSSESS HER TO PICK UP A CIGARETTE. HEAVEN KNOWS SHE HID IT FROM MY DAD AND US CHILDREN. IT WAS A NEIGHBOR WHO TOLD ME ONCE ' YOUR MOM COMES HERE ABOUT ONCE A MONTH...AND SITS AND HAS A CIGARETTE'. YIKES

BUT I AM SOMEWHAT TAXED AT TIMES..BUT YET I MISS HER WHEN I GO FOR JUST A DAY OR A FEW HOURS. THIS WEEK END WE WENT TO SANTE FE FOR 2 DAYS. WHEN I ARRIVED AT HER BEDSIDE AROUND 10.PM..SHE KNEW ME...SAID IT WAS SO NICE FOR ME TO STOP BY. IMAGINE ' STOP BY'.

THIS MORNING. I FOUND HER AT 7..TRYING TO GET OUT OF BED ..SAYING THESE COVERS WERE NOT HERS... I EXPLAINED THIS WAS HER ROOM..AND SHE LIVES WITH ME...HER RESPONSE WAS ' OH HOW WONDERFUL NOW I CAN REALLY SLEEP AND RELAX'.

THIS WAS UNUSUAL. SHE USUALLY AWAKES FEELING GOOD..KNOWING ME..AND READY FOR CEREAL AND STRAWBERRIES. BUT EVERY DAY IS DIFFERENT.

SOME DAYS ARE DIAMONDS..SOME DAYS ARE STONES!

HERE ARE SOME 'BEFORE PICTURES"..TAKEN AROUND 2007..HER DEMENTIA REALLY SHOWED ITS UGLY HEAD SOON AFTER...

LIVE IN THE NOW!

CREATE YOUR DAY!

DANNY'S BIRTHDAY IN SANTE FE

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU DANNY!..THIS WAS TAKEN AT THE END OF OUR STAY..WHEN THE SNOW FLURRIES STARTED TO FALL. DAN HAS HATS FOR ALL SEASONS..AS YOU CAN SEE FROM OTHER PICTURES OF HIM ON MY BLOG!! HE LOOKS GOOD IN ALL!!! I HAD EAR MUFFS ETC...AND ACTUALLY ENJOYED THE FLURRIES

AND GUESS WHAT I MET SANDRA DURAM WILSON AT AN OUTDOOR ART SHOW. I TOLD HER I WAS WORKING WITH AIRBRUSH PAINTS AND SHE GAVE ME SOME CLUES ON KEEPING THEM WET SO THEY FLOW LONGER..AND OTHER TIPS!!! SHE WILL BE AT ART UNRAVELED THIS SUMMER BUT I WOULD LOVE TO TAKE A 4 DAYS CLASS FROM HER IN SANTE FE...SANTE FE..SANTE FE...WHERE ALL THE ARTIST CREATE!!! 2 DAYS AND YOU CAN GET INSPIRED!!
IN OUR SPARE TIME..WE WENT THRU SOME OPEN HOUSES...BEGINNING AT 1 MILLION TO 2.5 MILLION. THIS WAS THE FIREPLACE IN THE 1M DOLLAR HOME!! SO ORIGINAL..SO BEAUTIFUL...THEY KNOW HOW TO BUILD GORGEOUS HOMES.

DAN MET SHIRLEY MCLAIN AT HER HOME ( BUSINESS) AND SAID HER 'COMPOUND' IS UNBELIEVABLE!!! CAN YOU IMAGINE. HE DIDN'T EVEN KNOW WHO SHE WAS WHEN SHE CALLED SO HE WASN'T ALL SHOOK UP!! NO THIS ISN'T HER HOME!~
I PAINTED A FRAME FOR DANNY FOR HIS BIRTHDAY AND FORGOT TO TAKE A PICTURE OF IT DAH...BUT HERE IS MY FIRST TRY AT AIRBRUSH ON A FRAME. DANNY'S I USED GOLDS AND TURQUOISE ..THE SANTE FE COLORS..BUT I AM FINDING YOU CAN REALLY CHANGE A DULL FRAME WITH JUST SOME AIRBRUSH COLORS
BEFORE LEAVING FOR SANTE FE WE WENT TO JOHNS COMPANY PICNIC AND WHO SHOWED UP BUT NOBEL. THE NOBEL-EST OF DOGS ( WELL EXCEPT FLAPJACK)..AND SITTING WITH MY SON JOHNNY..THEY WERE THE SAME SIZE! HAHA. COULDN'T RESIST THIS PICTURE...HE IS A BIG DOGGIE..BUT HE IS NICE. DOESN'T BITE!!! ( WELL UNLESS YOU TRY TO GET INTO HIS COMPOUND!
AND..LAST BUT NOT LEAST..MY TRY AT PAINTING A TILE. I WANTED SOME TILES FOR ALONG THE BACK WALL AND DECIDED NOT TO PAY FOR A HAND PAINTED TILE AT ABOUT 20.00 EACH..SO I FOUND THIS TILE AND TRIED IT ON AIRBRUSH. IT WAS PERFECT..THEN I LAID IT DOWN ON THE CONCRETE TO DRY...EXCEPT I WASN'T AS GENLE AS I THOUGHT..AND WHAM........IT CRACKED!!! BUT ITS GOING UP ANYHOW. ITS CALLED A LESSON ON USING TILE..AND DROPPING IT ON CONCRETE TO DRY!!! MY NEXT ATTEMPT IS GOING TO BE WITH SOME SPIRALS AND WHATEVER
SPENDING TIME WITH DANNY, WHO HAS BEEN RECORDING MUSIC AND HAS FOUND MANY WAYS TO MARKET HIS PRODUCT...HE EXPLAINED TO ME THAT IF I WANTED TO HAVE THOSE FAMILIES CARING FOR PARENTS WITH DEMENSHIA TO FOLLOW MY JOURNEY I NEEDED TO PUT THE WORD..DEMENSHIA ..IN MY BLOG SO MANY TIMES THAT GOOGLE..FINALLY FINDS IT. I NEVER KNEW THATS HOW IT WORKED.

SO I PLAN TO DO SOME OF THAT ON EACH BLOG.

THAT SAID..I WILL DO MORE ..SOME EACH WEEK AND NOT COPY EVERYONE BECAUSE MY CLOSEST FRIENDS DONT' HVE TO BE REMINDED OF MY JOURNEY...WE SHARE AND TALK..AND THATS GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME...BUT I WILL WRITE MORE AND GET IT UP ON GOGGLE...SO YOU CAN ONLY SEE IT IF YOU ACTUALLY DOWNLOAD WWW.AWINGANDAPEAR@BLOGSPOT.COM.

I DO PLAN TO CONTINUE COPYING EVERYONE ON THINGS I THINK YOU MIGHT LIKE TO HEAR ABOUT.HAHAHAHAHAHA ITS LIKE HAVING TO SIT THRU SOMEONE'S 400 PICTURES OF THEIR VACATION!!! I TRULY UNDERSTAND. ACTUALLY THIS BLOG IS FOR ME...AS MY JOURNAL...I JUST LOVE TO INCLUDE EVERYONE WHEN WE HAVE PICTURES OF OUR GIRLS DAY OUT ETC...

OR...........SOME ART FROM MY MIXED MEDIA GROUP. SHARING IS SO FUN! I LOVE TO GIVE AND I LOVE TO GET! SO DO WHATEVER BRINGS YOU JOY!!!

CHEERS